Friday, August 05, 2005
I need somebody to take care of me.
I need somebody to care for me.
I need somebody.
Insecure and ostracised is how i feel right now. Actually, it's been bugging me for so long. It is about time i spoke up. It's about time that my insecurities are met. But it'll take so much more than before. I don't feel right at all. I don't feel the same anymore. I don't feel happy and on the clouds anymore. I don't feel loved anymore. I mean I am loved..but I can't feel it anymore.
No more can I be the princess in the castle on the cloud. No more can I dream of perfect fairy tales and romatic happenings. Reality strikes me on my head, shooting an arrow through my fragile heart, breaking my limbs til I fall to the floor. My heart has been shattered many times and I don't want that to happen again. I'm smart enough to know that. So what am I doing?
I need my shoulders, I need my ears, I need my comfort, I need those people around me again. I've shared with you guys my happiest moments or even just normal and mundane daily routines, but now I really need that somebody.
Mei thanks for actually being online when I came home..and chatted with me.
I wish someone would help me out.
Where's my guts.
Where's my independence.
Where's my individuality.
All gone...
why?
Because I've let my guard down.
Because I thought that it won't happen again.
Because I thought that no same thing may happen to me twice.
I wanna be happy again...
I can dance and be happy...
but what is short-lived happiness...
it's all just a mask I'm wearing around, hiding my eyes so as no one will see through me.
Perhaps I've got a thing sensing others sadness...but no one can sense mine. Perhaps that somebody who can...has yet to be found..perhaps that somebody out there...is nobody. Perhaps I'm just alone.
Ness dream on 4:35 AM
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Ness
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