Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Has it ever occurred to you I know reading poetry stuff from me gets tiring and boring. I'm sorry i bored ya'll i'm sorry really sorry.
why you're such in pain?
In such great pain that
you thought you'd go insane.
You ponder long and hard
to see the reason why
but just find out that
it's harder if you try.
To calm oneself down
to breathe in and relax
To suck in all the bad and good
the world lets you have.
Then start to focus on yourself
why this had to be
perhaps you'd find that in the end
the reason was just me.
I've been through this the past few days
So trust me that its true
I've found that lots of things happen
because i didn't have You.
I've lost my sight, I've lost my heart
I've lost everything i once had
It's all because of You that they're gone
and it's because of you, I want them back.
I'm sorry to certain people out there
that cry was meant to be
You didn't know what went through my mind
But that's okay I'm free.
I'm free to think and do what I want
No longer am i confused.
I'm no longer caught in the web of my mind and heart
I'm free to do what i should.
Thanks for concern, Thanks for trying
to talk to me when i was down
you're wonderful friends and friends i adore
i love you no mistake
I'm all better now, and ready to talk
i'm sorry for making you worry
I'm no longer gonna cause any pain
the pain that first struck me.
Things will be better, things are not going to change
they will all still remain
cuz i realized that it's all because of me
that this even started.
It's always me, it's all my fault
I'm the one to be blamed
It's always been this way in life
ever since I came
I know not to blame others
I know not to hate
I know that i feel nothing now
cuz it's all just so mundane.
I know this sounds depressing and such, i'm really very sorry. It's actually the same post i posted on my livejournal. I wanted to post about what i've been up to the past week, but this was at the tip of my tongue and mind and fingers so i had to type it.
Ness dream on 2:20 PM
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